Two years ago, my world was blown apart with the break-up of my relationship with my significant other.
I'd sacrificed many things to be in relationship with him and I felt devastated by the events of his leaving and my lack of control over them.
My business was suffering and my well-being was in question. I had a long way to climb to be the vibrant, happy, independent woman who had entered that relationship several years before.
Today I am happier than I've ever been in my whole life. I remember people telling me that I'd pass through the pain and that I'd look back and feel gratitude for the journey... and I knew they were right, but I didn't see how it was really possible to ever feel any different than I was at that moment. And I didn't see how it was possible to ever forgive him or to love again or to move forward.
How did I get from that to where I am today? One step at a time. One step at a time, I made my way to a new world in which I live today - one that is much, much larger than the world in which I lived a few years ago. A world that I've created for myself with intention and possibility.
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Here's what I've learned about forgiveness: There is no forgiveness. There is nothing to forgive when one truly takes responsibility for one's own experiences and life. There is no one to blame. There is no one to forgive; unless it is to forgive oneself. I am responsible for what I make of things, of events, of people. I am responsible because I create my thoughts, feelings, experiences... I am the source of all that I perceive. Others do what they do. I feel however I feel about what they do; no one is responsible for my feelings, except me. And therefore, no one is to blame for my reaction to what another did; I am responsible for it.
Thus, there is no forgiving another... the only thing is to give thanks for the lesson.
I am so thankful for my lessons. I am so thankful to the man who left - through his actions and my reactions, I have learned so much. Thank you.
There are so many things for which I'm grateful now that I have my life back. I have more love in my life than ever before - and I am the source of that love. I feel a profound connection with my surroundings and I have faith that I will always be taken care of exactly as I require.
Thank you, creator, for providing me all that I require.